Update // Health and work and all the things (Patreon)

Hey guys,

Posting a little update, as my situation changes very fast currently.
Last week I have been diagnosed with pregnancy diabetes, which is a very dangerous condition that endangers both me and my child. So far it seems like it is more severe this time than it was during my last pregnancy. I also had it but I had no problem managing it with a healthy diet. This time round even though I restricted my diet very much, up to the point where eating is actually suffering (I am a very fussy eater). If I wasn't pregnant, I would prefer not to eat anything, than the things I have to eat daily now :D But well, I have no choice, cause I need the calories. Too bad this kind of calories don't ever make you feel contnet or full. So I am just goiung about my day constantly hungry, irritated and tired.

It's hard to have a big enough calory count with the things I can eat, which ends up occupying most of my day - preparing and eating the meals, measuring my blood sugar, keeping register of it for my doctor to see on the next visit. I am so far on the verge of probably getting insulin prescribed, so it's terryfying. This would enhance the possibility of my baby getting diabetes as well as me having later problems with insulin regulation after pregnancy.

I have overall already gained over 10kg since the beginning of my pregnancy, while I remain slender. I found out on my last visit that my baby is siezewise in the 93rd percentile of all babies. Which means he is larger than the absolute majority of babies at his development stage.  Being a short 158cm (5'1") woman, this baby is HUGE. Which I guess at least explains why my belly looks like it's about to burst. But hey, at least whenever I walk into a store people make way for me to go anywhere I want or need casue they probably fear I will give birth any moment now :D

We will see how it goes from here, but so far it seems like I will either get insulin or I am headed for an early induction (3-4 weeks earlier than my term would suggest - so in August).

I am overall exhausted, can barely walk or sit for longer than half an hour straight. On top of that of course I am also a mom to an active toddler, so we spent all weekends and afternoons outside, which doesn't really help me rest. My husband is doing the best he can, but welp, he can't eat or carry this weight for me and he has to work more now, since I cannot be as active as I used to. He also takes care of literally all the housework, so I don't have to.

I try to work when I can, but it's become increasingly harder with each day. I can no longer plan on things, as reality brings me hard to the ground with days when I can barely even gather my thoughts to actually do something other than look after my child, take care of my diet and just survive. It's even hard to wash myself, no way I can put on my own shoes etc. I can no longer pick things up from the ground when they fall, cause I risk hernia with my child being so big :D

So anyway, I wish I could bring some better news, but here we are. I do what I can, I'll draw whenever I can manage to, but I sadly don't expect any miracles to happen anytime soon. On Wednesday I will be driven to my parents in law and will stay there for about a week, as they will help me looking after my first child.

Thanks a ton for your great support so far and I do hope I can still at least bring you some content for your faithful pledges. Your support means to me now more than ever, since this is the hardest time where I can barely support my family with my work anymore at this point, commissions are slow, my mind wanders, my body suffers.

So thank you a lot guys. You are absolutely amazing and I am so happy to have your help and support. Let's hope I can get some more work done before I end up in the hospital for the induction :D

Hope you've been doing well and welp, cheers! I'm off to cooking my next meal ^^"
~Lana